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This, I have heard people say to me, after I explained how I have evolved the chess game, into a roundtable game SAN for peace. “You are against Chess” was not always said in an angry voice. It was said, like more of a statement, as if it is so; I am against that, and all is said and done with that.

I was always a bit taken by it. Didn’t know what to say really. Especially when it came with such force. I felt the pain of it, the disconnection. Chess, a game that is so well known. Chess, an ancient game. Chess, as part of so many myths and stories. How can I be against it? It is part of the human evolution. I played it myself so many times, before I turned 28. It is conditioned in me & I have evolved it. Does that mean, I am against it? Does the fact I am not engaging myself in playing chess anymore mean that I am against it? How do you answer a statement like that? Is the very fact of a reply not already a denial of the living person, identified with making a statement like that? I seemed not to be part of that conversation in the first place.

Well; today an answer did come bubbling. Of course I was on my own, walking along the Forest Way, seen by the trees. No-one around to tell the great answer to… hehe.. Maybe in this blog then? My answer to such statement is that I think Chess is against life. I think Chess is anti life. That does not mean, that I am also anti life. It does not mean that I see any human playing it is anti life. It also does not necessarily mean that I am also against it. I think everything can dissolve in life. And so can anti life dissolve in life.

I remember a day in 2021, when I shared roundtable SAN in Amsterdam. I remember that day well, as my Mum passed away that day. At the time, while a man was shouting at me such a statement, I did not yet know, that was that of a memorial day for me. All I heard was pain; “There must be a looser in every GAME!!! This can NOT be!!! There MUST be a winner and a LOOSER too!!! This is NOT okay!!!” By then, I was already sitting on the ground at his feet, explaining the origins and the meaning of each word he was saying. I was trying to calm him, 30 years older then me, down. 7 people were standing around, observing, perhaps waiting to start playing roundtable SAN together. Maybe I am the idiot here, sitting at his feet. Yet, I also see the light of life in him. I explained how play was possible without a looser. How that can be felt through experience. I told a story of a tribe where children were asked to run at a bag of candies and the first whom would be there would win the price. They all walked together hand in hand and shared the price. No looser there. Even the professor, whom did this experiment with the children of that tribe, won insight into life. The man sitting above me continued in a shouting matter: “You are to nice!!!”. I was not sure how to receive that, it felt like pain, like isolation, a bit funny even, to ridiculous. And yet for me mentally I saw it also as a compliment. Yes, I am nice.

Nice is great! There is no such thing as too nice, I think. I am being me. And sometimes I feel frustrated and anger too, messed up too. I do not think I do exclusion though of a human in front of me. Chess is still today’s norm. A system, dualistic and divisive in its design. Chess; exclusion with every move, with every step, with every attention. Out there to isolate from one another. Chess; a diabolic system conditioned into us modern human minds for centuries. On YouTube videos with millions of views, wars are being explained based on chess theory. We humans are not only our cultural conditioning though.

The Buddha apparently said not to play Chaturanga. Chaturanga is an ancient game from India of which chess likely originates from. I think a man, who was once a prince playing games like that, finding world known enlightenment, likely knows what he is speaking of. Yet Humanity hasn’t learned to not play Chaturanga. Not at all. Chess is still the norm. Duality in its simplest visible form, visible in almost every modern house. Established as a conditioned system inside the leadership of governments. Kings and knights have grown up with it, as a pillow to sleep on. Dreaming to one day safe a fair maiden. Not knowing that likely that fair maiden is the land Goddess of nature, trying to safe them boys from isolated disaster in the future. Even the Queen on this Lewis chess board, seems to be saying in desperation; “…oh dears, there we go again…”

It helps me mentally to have created a solution for battle, in a playful boardgame micro cosmic manner, for humans to enjoy in the return to life. I don’t think though, that solution, and communicating about that solution, gifting that solution, is meaning the same as that I am against chess, or that I am against any human who identifies themselves with that system, and seems to completely act like that system. How utterly horrific and sad that identification is to be a witness of, I hope that I give answer to the title of this post, in a way that also liberate the people that make such statements. You human reading this, might likely not be one of saying such statements. I have received many compliments for what I bring. By many dear friends. Way more compliments, than the title of this post. Which maybe and ultimately is a compliment too.

I think it is wise if we humans let go of that chess game, in a compassionate free will mannered ceremonial illuminating way. I think I have done so myself, with a beautiful creation as a result; SAN. I pray Humanity can welcome this, to Help re-find our human ways to return to Humane Nature.

Why not come play and experience Roundtable SAN?

Friday 12 June 2026

by Wouter Rudolph Verwer